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Monday, March 31, 2014

Skin



Flesh stretched over muscle
 ligament
and bone
Intended to protect
Instead imprisons

Skin

A face,
A body unrecognizable
Sunken eyes gazing back in the mirror
Dull
and lifeless
A plastered smile disappears
The mask dropped,
 but the hurt remains

I stand under the stream of water,
empty
Scrub it away,
 rough
 and harsh
Tightening across my limbs
Glistening wet

Skin

Trapped within my own body
My very identity as a girl,
ripped away
I became a woman…
 through no choice of my own
Tissue tearing
Blood staining
Arms flailing

Tearing at tissue
As though I could wash away the feeling

Goddamn skin

Fingers bleeding
 have a mind of their own
My own touch disgusts me

Skin

I remember how gently Daddy used to wash my hair
Soap now has a different purpose
The limbs,
the organs
Membrane stretched across
Filth,
rot,
decay
Within my very soul
All the bubbles in the world cannot wash away the shame

Skin

Lungs straining
Bones encasing
My very breath suffocating
Weeping for the loss of control of my life…
No longer mine

Skin

NO.

You
cannot fuck away my innocence
You
cannot own my corpse
You
cannot tell me my body is not my own
You
cannot keep me silent

Enclosed within ribs
Another organ
Trapped and safe beneath

Skin

It beats incessantly
on and on
From final breath and back
To when I lived within another
It has thumped within the cavity
It calls home

It is broken
It is misused
But unlike skin… it is mine.

Despite your efforts to maim my body
Take my virtue
Screw me into silence
Rape a girl into a woman

Skin

It mocks you
Safe within my chest
Beating on, my willpower

I will survive
I will thrive


Heart.

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